Wanting things Your way, Solomon

Dear God,

I think I have the craziest family in the world. Three of my brothers are already dead. I have lots of Moms and I was almost born to a different dad!

Dad's first wife was embarrassed when Dad was dancing with the commoners (which was pretty undignified) but anyway, he was dancing and rejoicing to praise You. And now she can't have kids (2 Sam 6:16-23). Though, You probably knew that already, since You probably made it happen. I think that's so sad.

My big brothers are crazy. I just don't even understand them. My oldest brother made some bad choices and my third oldest brother killed him for it (2 Sam 13). These are the guys who are supposed to sit on the throne!?! I think that's so sad.

Then that same brother tried to kick us all out of the castle and become the king while Dad is still alive (2 Sam 15)! Talk about the rebellious child! We did in fact leave for a while, but he ended up dying. It was weird because it was better for us that he died, so we didn't, but Dad just wept and wept (2 Sam 18). Parents aren't supposed to lose their kids, and that was not even his first son to die. I think that's so sad.

I'm not Mom's first kid. In fact, I'm not even from her first marriage, but I am the oldest surviving between Mom and Dad. See, their first son died. I never got to meet my brother. He was just a baby. Dad says it's his fault the baby died. I don't know how that's possible, it's not like he killed it. But he says that Mom belonged to another man when he took her to be his wife and that my brother died as a result of his sin (2 Sam 11-12). I think that's so sad.

I just asked Dad how we met Uncle Mephibosheth, because I knew he wasn't Daddy's brother. Daddy said his best friend was supposed to be king, but his dad messed up too and You took the throne away from their family and gave it to ours. Uncle Mephibosheth was his best friend's son and the only survivor of his friend's family (2 Sam 9). It's exciting for me, because Dad said he used to live out in the wilderness and be a fugitive all the time, hiding from his best friend's dad. I do prefer the palace, but the only way for Dad to be king instead of his friend was for his best friend to die. He was still a young man when he died in battle (1 Sam 31:6). That's why Dad has Uncle Mephibosheth here with us and takes care of him. I think that's so sad. 

Mom says I might be king one day and that I should not act like my brothers. I don't want to act like them because I know the things they are doing are wrong. I think that makes You sad.

Wanting things Your way, Solomon